4 hour body

Hey guys.
I have done this method of nutrition before, a slow carb way as it is typically titled. As opposed to totally avoiding carbs, which is completely impossible seeing as veggies and fruits have carbs, I am trying to go for something a little longer lasting, digestive wise.
The closest thing to what I am doing, that I can find, is the 4 hour body diet, Tim Ferris wrote a book on it. You can check it out, but in all honesty I disagree with his supplementation and with the no fruit rule. He claims that you should not eat fruit since it goes straight to sugar. Silly in my opinion. For example; grapes are great for you, as long as you don't eat a pound of them at a time.
Anyway, its time for me to move onto a new university (finally). ADU is from Florida, and their nursing program seems promising. I start in Fall. I have to call the lady tomorrow to register for classes. I want to get the basics, like philosophy of health care and whatever out of my way this semester. I hope the majority are all online, that way I can take more credit hours and rock it the whole semester.
Anyhoo. Its back to clean eating for me. The garden is in full fledge om nom nom mode. LOTS of zucchini to eat. Tonight I threw a recipe together, just based off of my own tastes. I threw into a crock pot:
4 cups cubed zucchini (probably more than that, we have a ton growing)
1/2 onion chopped
1 24oz jar marinara sauce (Ragu onion and mushroom I thing. It was on sale.)
1 14.5oz can tomatoes with juice
4 cloves garlic minced
1 tsp thyme
1tbsp pesto sauce (was gonna do basil, but I had this in the fridge open)
1 lb ground italian sausage
1/2lb ish chicken breast, pre cooked kind
salt and pepper to taste

Threw this all together in a large crock pot for 6 hours on high while I am sleeping. My pot automatically goes to a 'warm' setting after the timer is up. Kitchen smells amazing.

I actually have to be getting in bed right now. I have a CPR renewal class at the hospital I work at at 8am tomorrow morning. The only sucky thing about working nigh shift.....its almost 12:30am and I am still wide awake. But I love my crew. Wouldn't change it for the world. Bed time.
May Goth be with you.

The Game

The Game. They say people either have what it takes, or they don't. I watch all these other successful students outreaching and kicking butt. Me on the other hand, I'm kinda screwed. 

One of my recent professors had been a nurse for 20 some years. She said something one day that I thought was a good idea and it always stuck with me. She said when we start our career into medicine, to keep a journal, as silly as it sounds. She said that it can help you think things through, can get heat off your chest, it can help you reflect. A bunch of different things. So, I figure this counts, right? Even though I'm not technically even in nursing school yet, just doing my pre reqs? Idk. Idk anything about anything right now, but I'm trying. 

Didn't get any of the hospital jobs I applied for. I heard losts of people tell me, oh it's just a bad economy right now. I don't think that's entirely true. The part that makes me laugh the most is they all say "Experience Preferred", but they wont hire you because you don't have experience. HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO GET EXPERIENCE IF NO ONE WILL HIRE YOU?!?!?! It actually makes me laugh a bit. I know I will get in somewhere. Right now I'm facing situations I REALLY don't want to, but it depends on perspective. I say no way, I am no interested therefore I will hate the work and not learn anything. They say suck it up and get your foot in the door. Both I think are equally important, so I'm fighting this one. 

I'm trying to keep my cool when it comes to studying. I know I get worked up, but hey, I'm paying for the freaking classes! I dont have a rich family or wealthy spouse to pay for my schooling/housing/bills/food/pets/supplies/etc etc etc. I pride myself in the knowledge that I work hard for what I have, that hey, I earned that and it wasnt handed to me. But then I go and bitch about how I wish it was easier. I look at it this way; maybe you'll have a trust fund, maybe you will have a wealthy spouse, but you never know when either one might run out.

Here's the thing about me. I love a challenge. I didn't know this until maybe a year or so ago. I was talking to my best friend of over a decade, and I was asking alot of 'why' questions. After a period of mulling things over, I hear her say, "because you would not be happy if there wasnt a challenge involved. You get bored too quickly where there is no resistance." (insert explosion sound here) Really? Also recently I discovered hey, I might just be an adrenaline junkie. Not in a bad way either. I could talk all day about how I have no interest in the medical field, and how I could quit and be happy. But then I talk about how exciting it is, blah blah blah (enter scenario here), and there I go! They say people go into medicine for the rush. For the high. I can believe that now. 

After getting turned down for a few hospital jobs I was really hurt. It was weird too. I don't normally take anything like that personally. It's just the way things are. I need to apply to a few more jobs. I'm looking at a different hospital too. Part of me went, oh goodness no I don't want anymore make it go away!!! Then sitting here, it dons on me, hey, you can either waste your life drawing lines, or you can live your life crossing them. 

Man I get sidetracked. Yay ADHD! It's the H that is the issue. I digress. Anyway, finishing up my 'idiot proof lentils'. Look it up on youtube. The Tofu Guru. She's funny. Well, I need to finish this chapter and get to bed for work tomorrow. I need to go ahead and submit those apps too. May goth be with you! 

Lots of projects, so little money...

I must say how proud I am about all of my crafty abilities. I have taken on so much interest in how to make stuff,and it really has paid off. I paint, sew, do general crafting, turn thrift into fab, etc. I grew up with the principle of being savvy drilled into my head. They always said, necessity is the mother of invention. So, if I couldn't afford it or find it, I have made it. 

The biggest obstacle of crafting, especially of picking up a new interest, is the initial investment cost. All the supplies, the shipping, the packaging, etc. Right now I am looking at starting my own small small small line of skin care. Starting with facial care, I want to do natural serums and remedies. They are fairly simple once you learn the integumentary system and how/which natural products work best. However, first things first I need to come up with a recipe. I have plenty of people willing to test it out for me and give me feedback on the formula. Then, its buying more product, packaging, labels, shipping stuff, etc. Putting on a new product is really a pain sometimes. 

One product, I am halfway through getting ready to sell. I already have the packaging and shipping products. Sewing machine is in the shop as of today, so once that puppy is fixed, I can start. Now all I need...is the synthetic hair. Yes, extensions! Anywhere from streaks to full sets. No one thinks to make them from scratch. Bulk hair, depending on whether you get natural or synthetic, can be inexpensive. Then, you just have to know how the heck to sew it together, which is also simple. For me, I will be using a special kind of synthetic. It can withstand up to 400 degrees with hot tools, the color is part of the fiber, so it will never fade, and it has a much more natural sheen and feel. I don't like the idea of using natural human hair. I don't know whats been on that, whats been done to it, and to me its kinda strikingly similar to wearing a fur coat.....oh yea, I totally just made that comparison. I think its just gross, mainly for hygiene reasons.

Anyway, here I was getting all excited when I got paid, but then realizing if I just fix my machine (which was the most sensible since I have alot to do) that I have enough left for....well, just bills really. Its whatever, that's how things are right now. I'm pretty excited to get my machine fixed though, I have soooooo many things I want to make, not just extensions. 

Its getting late. I had best get to bed. I hate waking up early in the morning. I would much rather wake up late and stay up late. I know you are getting the same amount of sleep, but still. Anyhoo, may goth be with you!! lol

 

So it begins...

School has finally started up again yesterday. I'm one of the few people who actually get excited about school haha! Such a nut job, I know. One of my classes is online so that is pretty convenient for me. Oh gee, I'm so bored, guess I can do some homework now. 

Still haven't heard back from any of my applications to the hospital yet. Now I'm burnt out on actually giving a crap. However, I did dream last night that two recruiters called me. I was super excited and sitting by the phone with a pounding heart, just waiting....waiting...but now I'm like, meh, if they ever call. Maybe its better this way so that I can calm down and use that grey matter. 

I've been working out alot lately. I may not be following my diet right now, but I sure am making up for it with loooooots of exercise. Think I did 1 1/2 hrs last night of just cardio, then weights after that. Total accident really, was waiting for a friend to get her butt there with me. Found a hilarious aerobics DVD and HAD to download it. So funny. Made me laugh the whole time, but it was a good workout for sure. 

After combing over my new thrift find sewing machine, I think all it needs is oil and its good to go. I think. I hope. There's so much stuff I want to make. If I have money left over on this paycheck, I may get it looked at just to be safe, buy my synthetic hair so I can start on making my extensions to sell in my shop, make myself a new purse, or make some other cute purses out of the scraps I have all over my basement and sell them. I still have a painting to finish as well. Two paintings.....now that I think on it. 

I feel like every time I turn around, I need makeup. I know I use alot of eye makeup but I never really understand how I go through SO much freaking foundation!!!!!! I do need hair stuff so I don't fry my hair with styling. I have a good hook up for that, so maybe that's what I will do with it. I have no idea. Kids need to go to the vet, I need to get some more vitamins, etc. There's always something hu? 

Mayo and Beer. Prioritizing.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full

They agreed that it was.
 

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
 

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

 

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
 

He asked once more if the jar was full...
 

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed..

'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
 

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car..

The sand is everything else---the small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
 

Spend time with your children.

Spend time with your parents.

Visit with grandparents.

Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and mow the lawn.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.

The rest is just sand.
 

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'

The beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of beers with a friend.

Thrift

What a weekend. It was really busy. I was able to see some friends I haven't seen in a long time. That was good stuff. Drinking and watching kung fu movies. Oh how it makes me want to go back to class...if I had the money. Finally finished submitting a ton of resumes and whatnot to the hospitals. Now the waiting game of waiting for them to call back with job offers and or interviews. 

Went thrift shopping with my man also. I originally just wanted a few pairs of jeans. Most of mine are so threadbare there is nothing there to cover anything haha! Hellooooo world they seemed to say. I found two pairs of long pants for now, and a pair of capris (sp?) that I noticed, passed up, then back tracked to find. Funny how some times you just know... Anyway, I also found a mini cabinet that I ended up painting black in the end and designating as my booze stash cab. It works perfectly. There is enough room on the top portion for my absinthe kit and other various booze accessories, and the bottom shelf holds all of my handles. And normal bottles too of course ;) Then.....I found a sewing machine by Singer that was only $20!!! I looked it over, opened it, fiddled with it, plugged it in and got it running while in the store...it looks to be in VERY good shape. So, another sewing machine joins the fam. My other one is an ancient, and when I say ancient, I mean you can smell the history coming off of it, Kenmore that was given to me by an old neighbor. That thing is a metal beast for sure, but I messed it up on my last project so it needs to go see the Dr. I should take this new one as well. That's a benji dropped right there for the pair if not more. Sears used to service their Kenmores for free, but I found out that isn't the case anymore. Oh well. 

Finally completed some super cute hair clips I have been itching to make for awhile now. I originally saw them on Adora Batbrat, but I could not find them to purchase anywhere, even on Etsy. So, they always say necessity is the mother of invention, so I made my own pair. Alot easier that I had originally thought they would be, but they turned out perfect! I would load a picture but I don't have one yet. I need to get a cable for my camera yet so I can transfer pics. 

Tomorrow I'm off to get my text books for next semester, which starts in a week, and whatever else I need. I know it will be an easy semester, but still, I will miss my free time. Anyway, I need to get going so I can get some rest. May goth be with you! lol
 

New job jitters

Now, I'm not one to be scared of new jobs. I am the type of person who loves change. I get bored easy. So the idea of applying for my first healthcare job was like woohoo moment. Yesterday I spent time touching up my resume, looking at the openings, etc. I was in such a rush tho to get to my yoga class on time that I never actually got around to applying haha! I'm gonna do that tonight after work I suppose. 
It looks as though it may only have the option of 12 hr shifts. Which, while I did that for my clinical experience and it wasn't all that bad, something about it makes me cringe. I was raised to work hard. My whole family is that way. I value hard work and the feeling it brings you in the end. I think the only real reason I'm nervous is I'm going from barely working here and there, easy job, easy boss, to a REAL job. A big step towards my career.  Something that will mean alot as time goes by. 
Man, I am so sore from yoga class last night. It was a good one tho. I've been doing it for awhile now, and its funny cause there are still days when they tell you to do a pose and I'm like ^$#^&* is that???? 
So weird. Came into work...it was snowing, even caught some curb, then it was literally blowing sideways....now the sky is clear and its sunny out. Wow. Never a dull moment here. 
Not motivated at all today. I really just want to whip out my hot glue gun and craft up some cute hair clips. And work on that industrial painting I got commissioned to do. Or just sleep haha! 
Ive been working on loosing weight for years now. All it really boils down to for me is eating habits really. I am plenty active. I just have a hard time with saying no to food. I've gained maybe 30lbs over the course of a few years, and I finally had lost about 15...then the holidays came around. Gained it right back. I know how to loose it, I just get lazy and want to not worry about food. I really just need to suck it up and put my big girl panties on and start over. I'm worth it, and I'm the only me I have. 
Anyway, I had better actually DO something while at work. I'm just kinda staring off into space. Didn't sleep much last night. Don't feel like coffee either. Well, I did earlier, but I forgot on the way here haha! Whatever. May goth be with you!